"if that were my baby, i wouldn't know what to do",
"thank God that's not my baby",
"what do you do when a baby cries",
"what were we thinking to have a baby",
"i don't know how to take care of a baby".
so, i guess my mini-breakdown meant nothing and was unimportant. it's possible that i have lost my mind.
incidentally, i am a little over 17 weeks. i really didn't know. with the other three, i kept track, always knew what was going on with the baby. it's not that i don't care or don't want to know this time, i just...haven't looked. is that awful?