January 28, 2011

The Truth About Marriage (well, mine, anyway)

i don't read a lot of blogs, but i read a few.  most women don't mention their husbands much, but when they do, i have to wonder if they're telling the truth.  can your marriage really be that perfect?  is that even possible?  well, today, i'm going to tell you the truth about my marriage. 

we're not very good at teamwork, especially when it comes to the kids.  my husband is entirely too concerned with whether or not the kids like him.  that leaves me to be the bad guy, the one to always say no to fun things, make them brush their teeth, clean their messes and go to bed.  this really drives me nuts, but given the fact that all of our children are girls, i know it won't be long before they're mostly just embarrassed by everything that he does.  just knowing that his day is coming gives me something to look forward to. 

we're not the very best of friends.  my husband doesn't listen to me.  i repeat things over and over and over (i suppose that means i nag), he never listens until i yell.  at that point, he gets this far away look on his face and smiles.  i think he believes this look is convincing me that he's finally listening.  it only makes me want to yell more and maybe step on his toe or kick him in the shin. 

i hate the fact that he makes up words, tries to comment on things he knows nothing about, he walks around singing, making up the words to songs (but believes they're the right words), he tries to dance which involves lifting his knees to his neck and pointing his fingers in different directions, but i put up with it because i love him.  also, he puts up with the fact that i'm a control freak, i hate sharing my feelings, i don't like to cuddle, i yell.  i spend way too much time in the shower and i make fun of almost everything that he likes.

we're not perfect.  we didn't fall in love at first site.  we fight.  we don't have everything in common.  we annoy each other.  we embarrass each other.  we are happy together.  we can laugh at all of our shortcomings.  i'm not sure i'd really change anything.  i couldn't think of anyone i'd rather share this life with.

 

January 24, 2011

Maybe I'm Not Crazy Afterall

I have been on a book binge lately.  i've just been reading like crazy.  3 of the books i've read in the last week are books on postpartum depression.  i decided to be proactive about postpartum depression, to educate myself more and do everything in my power to avoid it because i can NOT go through that again.  my family CAN'T go through that again.  i can't guarantee that we would come through it ok again or that i would make it through at all. 

so, i went to my local library to see what they had to offer and let me tell you, it wasn't much.  three books-one written by brooke shields, one written by marie osmond and a small informational book.  i checked out the smaller book and ordered some others from nearby libraries.  maybe someday i'll read the other two, but for now, i'm not sure that books by celebrities are going to help me find what i'm looking for. 

it has been almost 2 years since i started taking medication for my ppd and it's been just over a year since i've been off all medication.  let me say that even though i knew the source of the problem, i knew that person wasn't me, i knew it had to do with having babies, even until last week, i had a voice in the back of my head telling me that the problem was mostly me.  i still worried that i really am that person who was so miserable and lost and useless.  WHAT A RELIEF!!! reading these books has lifted a weight from me that i didn't realize was even there.  i really can't explain what i felt when i read that this lady had the same anxiety, that lady wanted desperately to run away too, this one self-medicated with alcohol and  none of them thought they were capable of taking care of their children.  just learning about ppd has helped me so much.  it's taken away some of the pain, some of the shame and some of the fear.

i've decided to write more about my experiences with ppd and my plans to avoid suffering from it again.  the reason i started this blog was to try to help myself put my life back together once i started to feel better.  instead of sharing sooner, i let it sit pretty much unused for about 9 months.  when i did start blogging regularly in april, ppd was the last thing i wanted to think about, so i've mentioned it very little.  now that it has become a reality to me again, i feel that i should talk about it.  i should share my past experiences and i should share my plans for prevention.  just knowing some small details has helped me so much in the past week, i know that if i can help one person understand what is happening (or has happened) to them or someone they love, it will be worth rehashing the most painful time in my life.  it really is amazing what ppd can do to your mind, i don't think that any woman should be left in the dark to deal with those thoughts and feelings alone.

 

January 18, 2011

Oasis

This year, i'd like to do what i can to help others.  i took the time to find out what kind of items i could donate to the local women's center which helps victims of domestic abuse rebuild their lives.  it turns out they are in desperate need of everything.  so, i had the idea to start a box and fill it up over the year.  every time i go to the store, i'll pick something up and at the end of the year, donate the entire box.  this way, it's easy for me to help without breaking the bank.  we are, after all, a family of 5 (soon to be 6) with one income. 

i'd like to ask for your help.  i'd like to get a box together to donate at the beginning of march.  i'm asking as many people as i can to send me a small household item that i can put in the box.  items that can be donated are personal care items, such as toothbrushes, toothpaste, deodorant, shampoo, soap, tampons.  any kind of baby or children's items, diapers, wipes, lotions, washes, t-shirts, toys.  household items, such as toilet paper, paper towels, cleaners, dish soap, laundry soaps.  clothing items can also be donated. 
i'm not asking you to spend a ton of money.  all i'm asking for is one item.  you don't even need to spend anything if you have something at home already that you don't need anymore, a toy or a shirt that no longer fits. 

if you are interested in helping, you can leave a comment or send me an email at drnknhousewife@gmail.com and i will send you the address where you can mail your item.  any help you can give me is appreciated.  even if all you can do is share this post on facebook, twitter or link to it on your blog.  this means a lot to me, especially since i realized how badly they need these items. 

i will collect items over the next month and deliver the box to the women's oasis center on march 1st. 

January 14, 2011

A Week In Review-Kind Of

What a week it's been.  we've had TWO snow days.  yes, i hoped, i wished, i asked for one, but two?  that's just kind of mean.  so, corrina was in school yesterday, only goes for like 3 hours today and is home until tuesday.  i wonder how many times i will have to hear her say "i'm boorred" "i don't want to do that, it's booorring".  i'm a grown up.  my imagination only goes so far.  i would assume that when you are 7, you can come up with something to do on your own.  this just doesn't seem to be the case with her.  then again, it is possible that she's just trying to drive me insane and my reaction to "i'm booorred" actually is her entertainment. 

well, at least there's a birthday party in the middle of the weekend and i promised to take her shopping and get her ears pierced on monday.  this is something her father objects to because she's only 7 and he's sure that this will lead to other body piercings, tattoos and delinquency by the time she's 15.   you know, kind of like her mother (but, naturally, we don't discuss me very much. it's better to pretend that i've always been a lame fat lady who never leaves the house).  oh, and by the way, i didn't really become a delinquent until i was 18.  at that point it's no longer delinquency, is it? 

in other news, my husband is trying to make me leave the house today.  he suggests that i go to the grocery store (because that is my duty as a housewife), then maybe go to the library or take my book to lunch, and come back in time to make dinner for them (apparently, also my duty as a housewife).  i don't know, a margarita lunch doesn't sound so appealing sans margaritas.  besides, the mexican waiters are kind of mean to me now that they're not trying to get me drunk and steal my organs.  oh well, i suppose i could do something. 

i ordered some new sweat pants (are they even called that any more) because my old ones seem to have developed holes in unflattering places.  i also ordered a bathing suit.  i did this with the intention of wearing them to the gym (which i will eventually join).  winter is killing me.  i need to get out of my house.  i need to see other people.  i need to get some exercise.  i know i'm pregnant and i'm supposed to gain weight, but seriously, i don't think pregnancy is supposed to turn my rear into a shelf.  you can actually walk behind me and rest a drink or a plate or even a small child back there.  i'm considering covering my backside with a table cloth and trying to get a job in a restaurant.  perhaps while i'm out today, i should swing by the gym and unwillingly pay them my money (because i have become a cheapskate, or frugal if you you will, and i can't decide if a gym membership is something i'm ok with paying for). 

by the way, apparently, i am no longer a cancer, but a gemini.  i'm not really sure why this matters or when this happened.  i just happened to notice that a lot of people seem to be discussing it.  now, i'm left to wonder who am i really?
how was your week?  do you better job at entertaining your kids on snow days than i do? 
do you think 7 is too young to get your ears pierced?
also, do you think it's better to hide your mistakes from your children or be honest with them? 

January 13, 2011

You Capture-Doorways

Monday, my husband and i celebrated our fourth anniversary.  sunday night, we spent the night in a nearby town, ate dinner, and tried to pretend like we didn't have children!  while out, i snapped some pictures of doorways.




also, last week, the girls and i made coffee filter snow flakes.

here is one of the many that adorn our back door.



you can find more pictures of doorways at


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January 11, 2011

Snow Day Randoms

Here is a list of random things going through my head today.  I apologize for the lack of creativity!


1. today is a snow day. we did a craft and made peanut butter popcorn

2.  i know i haven't written in a while.  i've just been sitting around, soaking in my life (mostly with a silly grin on my face).  i've also been doing a lot of thinking.

3.  lack of posts doesn't necessarily mean lack of inspiration.  i've been inspired to do so many things, but i'm not sure how to go about doing them.  i'll write about it when i figure it out!

4.  i'd like to find someone who does blog design who will brighten this old blog up.

5.  i have a stack of books by my bed that need to be read.  yesterday, i started "Bitter is the New Black" by Jen Lancaster.

6.  i have either gained a ton of weight or am very swollen because i can no longer get my wedding ring on.

7.  i am 24 weeks pregnant.  we need to start preparing for baby, but i'm not sure where to start.

8.  i need to start learning about cloth diapering.

9.  i don't feel like making dinner tonight.  i didn't make dinner last night either.  i'm trying not to feel bad about it.

10.  i promise to get  back to posting soon.
Do you know someone you can recommend for the blog design?  What are you reading?  Do you use cloth diapers?

January 6, 2011

You Capture-The Year's Best

Here are my 10 favorite pictures from 2010

they may be pictures you've seen before.


i tried to look for some that i haven't shown before.


then i realized that i had shown these because they're my favorites.


so, i hope you enjoy this recap.


this year, i vow to take more pictures of things other than the girls.


but i will still take just as many pictures of them.


because they're cute.


but there will be pictures of other things too.


i promise.


until then, you'll have to suffer through pictures of my children!


you can find more 2010 bests at


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January 4, 2011

New Year, New Attitude

A belated happy new year to you and your family

this year, i don't really want to make a bunch of resolutions. 

i want to be able to lose weight after the baby is born.
i want to be more organized.
i want to get up earlier in the morning to do extra things,
like put make up on, fix my hair, go for a walk or make better breakfast.

i want to do those things,
but i probably won't,
so i'm not going to resolve to do them.
besides, i'm ok with not doing them.

none of them are really important.

this year, i will, however, try to be a kinder person.
i will try to do as much as i can to help others who need it.
i will try to be sincere in all of my words and actions.

these are thing that matter.
these are things i want to teach my children.




We spent our New Year's Eve at home, watching TV and drinking sparkling cider. None of us saw midnight, but it was perfect.  How did you ring in the New Year?





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