April 12, 2011
Do I know what I'm doing? Will I ever sleep again? How will I split my time between four? Right now, I feel like I'm failing with only three. Will I break down again? I can't. It will kill me. This is what terrifies me the most.
The closer it gets, the more scared I get. Maybe this is where I went wrong before. Maybe I wasn't scared enough. Maybe I thought too highly of myself and my abilities. That's a mistake that I'm not making this time.