I am with my children 24 hours a day. I go to bed with them and wake up with them. I am available for them at all times. I am not complaining. I am just stating a fact. I chose this. It was my decision to parent this way. My problem is that I have never been able to find a balance. Steve and I are working on having fairly regular nights out together (meaning at least once a month at this point). My problem comes with trying to find time for myself.
The way it is now isn't working for me. Right now, I just go, go, go until I can't go anymore. When I start to get irritable and crack, I leave for the evening. I hate doing things this way. I usually spend one evening a week away. I don't make plans with friends because I never know when I'm going to reach my limit and feel that I'm not allowed to go somewhere alone twice in the same week.
I need to find something I can do on a regular basis, maybe an hour a day. I need to find something that makes me feel fulfilled. My goal is to get rid of the days when burn out sets in, when I feel like I just need to get away from this house and the people in it. I need be even-tempered and not have times when I feel like I'm going to lose it if one more person needs to have their nose wiped or spills their lunch on the floor.