Some days, I wish I had a manual on dealing with pubescent girls. More accurately, how to deal with a pubescent 8 year old. I try so hard to be understanding and sensitive, but more often than not, I fall short of this. Honestly, some days I'm not even in the ball park of understanding and sensitive.
I so badly want my children to be happy, confident and caring. I want them to know that it's OK to feel whatever they feel, but also that they need to control their emotions. How can I teach them this if I can't do it myself? It gets so difficult to listen to my daughter tell me she hates me and constantly spit "what kind of mother are you" at me. Does she know that I ask myself that a million times a day and don't always like the answer?
I try to remember that this is not about me. I try to remember what I was like when I was 13. I try to remember that she doesn't have friends that she can turn to. I try to remember that she loves me. I try to remember that she doesn't mean what she says. I try to remember that she's confused and probably scared. I try to remember, but sometimes I fail miserably.